Friday, April 3, 2015

When Your Brain Hits That Proverbial Wall

The end of each semester is usually crazy for us. Trying to get everything with the Cooperative tied up with a pretty bow can be time consuming, mind boggling, and just plain exhausting. This year added to my plate is directing the spring musical. This is something completely new to me (in the past I have always run sound, etc) and sometimes I feel like I am failing miserably at it.

Yesterday at practice we were blocking the last 20 - 25 pages of Peter Pan. I got about halfway through it and my brain just stopped functioning. I couldn't remember what I had visualized for a certain part and hit a brick wall. That means 35 high school students standing over my shoulder waiting for me to get it together. My co-director recommended starting over and watching the flow of the scene again and it would come back to me. It did pretty much come back to me but still I felt like a failure. Trying to direct so many moving pieces at once sent me into a tail spin and my brain hit the proverbial wall. This is not something that comes naturally to me.

I am full to the brim with information in my brain and simply cannot add anything else at the moment. I have multiple plates in the air all spinning and something is bound to fall and shatter. I'm just hoping it won't be Peter Pan. In the following three weeks we have to build a stage, get lighting and sound figured out in a new location, multiple rehearsals, recital night for everything else we do at the Cooperative (art show, choirs, puppets, ballroom dance, and elementary drama), two Peter Pan performances, get the stage back down and put always until the fall semester, spring formal, parent packet information to the parents for fall class registration, continue homeschooling my own daughter, tutoring three 5th graders, review products for The Crew, and simply running a household.

Believe me when I say I am not complaining, because I love the Cooperative and everything it entails. I'm just hoping that I can keep going and finish strong. Prayers would be so much appreciated to finish the semester strong and let the students shine like they always do, not for their own glory but to show the community what God can do when he brings families together, working together to create something special.

3 comments:

amy espinosa said...

Prayers for you my friend. You will succeed, I have no doubt. Love you.

Jessica said...

When everything comes together at once it is overwhelming. You will get through it. Hang in there.

Karen said...

It can be so overwhelming at times; feeling like you are going 10 different directions. I am no doubt it will all come together. I so wish we were close enough to do your amazing Co-op. Keilee would adore it!!